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biopsy, breast cancer, breast surgeon consult, bruise, Cancer Kitten, Cathy, DCIS, Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, oncologist consult, post-biopsy
I don’t like not having anymore tests, because now the next step is to face the surgeons and oncologist. I just don’t want to. I am beyond scared. I have to stop to catch my breath whenever I think about having surgery. I am normally a piglet and I have lost my appetite for nearly everything. According to Bing, am already going to lose about ten pounds if I lose my boobs, I don’t really need to trim down elsewhere!
I peeled the surgistrips off of my incision tonight before I showered. The incision from Monday’s biopsy is still fresh and pretty open. My boob has a dark purple bruise, and there is bruising around my nipple. It’s significantly worse than the first biopsy. I probably should have waited until Bing was home, because looking at Monday’s aftermath just scared me more. I am dreading looking at myself after surgery already, and I don’t even know what kind of surgery I am going to have.
This ain’t no picnic, and it’s only just begun! Five days post-(second) biopsy.
Cathy Kenney 
You have every right to feel terrified. Just know we will be right by your side, holding you close. We will get through this. Love you, love you. Mom
When I had my biopsies I was given these wonderful little ice packs that fit right in my bra. I used them after surgery too.
We are all different, but I found that the anticipation of each new step of the journey was always far worse than the reality. I’ve now had my surgeries and chemo and am finishing up with radiation. I promise you, it gets easier. Having a black sense of humor helps too, especially if you can make people around you a tiny bit uncomfortable. It’s the little things 😉
Yes, I already understand what you mean-the anticipation IS worse! I just want to know what the doctors recommend so I can come to terms with whatever that may be. I think you inspired me to write about some of our cancer “humor”…we started making others uncofortable Day 1 of diagnosis!!!
I look forward to reading it. 🙂
Black humor is king/queen in our family, sweetheart…you’ve already shown so much courage…which includes knowing what you really feel and not pretending or putting on a brave face…it will make the roller coaster less wild, I assure you. There is so much complexity to what’s going on that unfortunately the mind has the chance to have a fear smorgasbord….so breath through it, my girl, one moment at a time….hug Bing, dogs, chickens, goats and whatever else you have in the menagerie!
I’m so glad I will be able to hug you on Wednesday!
Love, love, love,
Jolie
Hi Cathy – me too, glad to get the chance to hug you on Wednesday, and so impressed with your open nature, and for putting it out there for what it is. love you!
Cathy,
I offer you my thoughts, prayers, and best wishes always.
Ellen
Even in the worst times you exude humor and creativity. Those qualities will help you make it successfully through this journey. ❤ u girl!
We love you!!!! 😀