I don’t like not having anymore tests, because now the next step is to face the surgeons and oncologist. I just don’t want to. I am beyond scared. I have to stop to catch my breath whenever I think about having surgery. I am normally a piglet and I have lost my appetite for nearly everything. According to Bing, am already going to lose about ten pounds if I lose my boobs, I don’t really need to trim down elsewhere!
I peeled the surgistrips off of my incision tonight before I showered. The incision from Monday’s biopsy is still fresh and pretty open. My boob has a dark purple bruise, and there is bruising around my nipple. It’s significantly worse than the first biopsy. I probably should have waited until Bing was home, because looking at Monday’s aftermath just scared me more. I am dreading looking at myself after surgery already, and I don’t even know what kind of surgery I am going to have.
This ain’t no picnic, and it’s only just begun! Five days post-(second) biopsy.